MiMi From Blither

What curse words do you use most? Fuck, Motherfucker, Fuckin', Fucker... I also make frequent use of: shit, damn it, bitch, hell, Gawd Damn It, Geeeezus Christ. I'm going to hell, it's cool.

Do you own an iPod? Nope.

Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture? I love to take pictures. I love to be in pictures, if they are extra flattering :)

What was the last movie you watched? Hustle and Flow

What CD is currently in your player? Oh my Gawd!! I don't even own a CD player anymore!! WTF?! I was listening to my Johnny Cash Forever CD's last time I was in my Baby's car, though.

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? No milk, thanks. Closest I come is non-dairy hazelnut creamer in my coffee.

Has anyone told you a secret this week? Don't think so. If so, I didn't know it was a secret and probably repeated it. Oops.

When was the last time you had Starbucks? Too long ago :( No quad shots for the preggo mommy.

Can you whistle? Not even a little.

Did you watch cartoons when you were little? Popeye was my hero! (Still hasn't left me; look carefully at the Baby)

Do you own any band t-shirts? Vandals, Vandals, Strung Out, Vandals, Strung Out, Buck O Nine, Everlast, Save Farris, Darque Carnival, Lennon

What will you be doing in an hour? Probably making more food for the kiddos.

What was the last song you heard? The one in my head. A Panic! At the Disco song that I don't know the name of.

Last time you cried? Last night. I miss the Baby.

Desktop or laptop? Shit! Neither. I really suck these days.

What’s the weather like? Fuckin' cold! I'm in Reno. Take me back to Vegas damn it!

What were you doing an hour ago? Getting my last 10 minutes of sleep.

How many hours of sleep do you need to function? I prefer 10-12. Would like at least 8. But, usually get 5-6 and seem to make it ok.

Do you eat breakfast daily? Now that I'm pregnant, again, yes.

What did you do last night? Talked to one of my girls for a while. Talked to my Baby. Went to bed way early.

Do you use sarcasm? Would you recognize me if I didn't?

Do you sleep on your side/back/stomach? Left side with Baby behind me. I use his bicept as a pillow and hold on to his arms in front of me like a handle bar. Mmmm, I miss that!

Do you watch the news? Rarely. It's fuckin' depressing, I have enough of that on my own.

Do you have any scars? Three babies make lots of stretch marks. They were all born by c-section, so that made one scar. My breasts each have one tiny incision scar you can only see in extreme close-up situations ;) My nose ring left a small scar on my left nostril. I have some itty bitty chicken pox scars randomly scattered across my body. So, um yeah, nothing exciting.

It's not THAT taboo!

1. Given a homeless guy more than $5? Now this totally depends on defintion... a homeless man like just on the street that I didn't know? No, not even $1... But, I've had homeless friends, and in that case, yes. 2. Spent more than $500 on a bf/gf's gift or a night out? Um, no. 3. Had sex with more than one person in a day? "Person", yes.... Person of opposite sex, no. 4. Hooked up with a good friends bf/gf behind their back? Oh, I suck... yes. 5. Dated two people at once? Yup. 6. Actually met someone from myspace that you didn't know before? I think myspace sucks and will have no part in it. 7. Been raped? Date raped, yes. 8. Failed more than one class? I only failed in High School, when I was agoraphobic (meaning I was afraid to leave my house.) .9. Took someone's virginity when you weren't a virgin? ...No (but, I did lose my virginity to a virgin) 10. Hooked up with someone from a different race? ...Yes (one, Puerto Rician... we called him the Puerto Rician Dream... yummy) 11. Ran around naked outside in the daytime/night time? ...C'mon, I was a stripper, of course! 12. Scuba dived? ..No, damn it! 13. Snorkled? ...No.... my life is boring in the non-sexual aspect! 14. Dated someone you didn't want your friends to meet? ..I don't think so... If so, I was really drunk that time! 15. Got your stomach pumped from alcohal poisoning? ...Surprisingly, no... probably should have. 16. Threw up from alcohol? ...Um, yeah.... Lots, and Lots of times...... 17. Been suspended from school? ....Nope... 18. Kissed someone of the same sex? .... I'm bisexual... So, that's a big YES 19. Wore a short skirt with out panties? Lots... Even on my wedding day... teeheee... well, that was a dress, but still... 20. Let a guy paint your toenails? ...Yup..... 21. Met someone famous? ...A few......... Dated Josie Scott (lead singer of Saliva)... 22. Saved someone's life? ...No ... But, I tell my kids I save their lives by not taking it every day! 23. Seen someone die? .....Yes, my grandmother. 24. Killed someone? ... Only in my dreams ;) 25. Been in a physical fight? ... Yup.... always one hitters.... pussy ass bitches never hit me back... I am only 5'2" for pete's sake! Hit me back bitch!!! 26. Hooked up with someone 10yrs older or younger than you? ...Nope... Wouldn't do younger, they'd only be 16....ewwwww 27. Been arrested? ...Nope... See my halo?? 28. Spent the night in jail? ...Yup... See archives... it was a suicide watch... fuckers 29. Been in more than three car accidents in a year? ...No... that would suck! 30. Had sex outside? ....Lots! 31. Given or gotten road head? ....Yup!... Nearly died a few times... that shit is dangerous folks! 32. Had sex in your house when your parents were home? ...Er... Yeah....hehe 33. Had phone sex? ...Kinda... not really though.... 34. Been turned off by someone's personal hygiene "down there"? ....Not really... There are ways of knowing ahead of time ;) 35. Watched the donkey show? I have seen lots of ????? for answers on these kiddos... so, let me educate you: The donkey show is a woman fucking a donkey (usually Mexico, or TJ)...And, no, I have never seen it... Because I have never been there ;) 36. Had sex without a condom? ...Yes ... eek 37. Had a one night stand? ...Are there really people who haven't?? Really???? SHIT! I am sucking! 38. Triple Kissed? ...Again, I'm bi...So, of course! 39. Had sex on the beach? Not on the beach... but, in the water.... 40. Watched porn with someone else? ....Uh, yeah.... I also bartended in a swingers club... Where most bars play sports on the TV's, we played porn... So, I have watched porn with LOTS of someone else's.... ewie :) 41. Been fired from a job? ...Yeah 42. Danced on top of a bar? ...I was a stripper after all... but, I kinda did this everywhere! hehe 43. Had sex somewhere in your high school? OMG! Something I haven't done!! woohoo 44. Bought a vibrator? ...Naturally.... 45. Been in a porn shop? ....Yes...Used to work in one of those too... Dang, I had all the nasty jobs, didn't I? 46. Been in a dance competition?... Again, stripper.... But... I was also in ballet and jazz for over 10 years, so I did real dance competitions, too... and won! 47. Had a threesome? ... Several... Not since married... and, won't be sharing him either... pent more than one night in a hospital? ...Yes ... with each birth... and several looney bins ODed on a drug? Don't think so... Oh, yeah, another NO... go me, go me!!! Set a burning bag of poo on someone's front door step? ... um, no.... we left that to the jocks, which I so had no part of.....I was too stoned to have that kind of motivation, man!

More shit about ME!

1. What color are your kitchen plates? White on top, black underneath; squares 2. What book(s) are you reading now? "I Hate You, Don't Leave Me" by Jerold Kreisman, MD 3. What or who is on your mouse pad? plain blue4. What's your favorite board game? monopoly? 5. Favorite magazine? Psychology Today 6. Baked Goods? Dutch Apple Pie 7. Least favorite smell? Cat urine 8. What's the first thing you think of in the morning? FUCK! I don't wanna get up! 9. Favorite color?(s) Burnt amber, pumpkin, brick red 10. Least favorite color? mauve, fushia 11. How many rings before you answer the phone? my phone plays songs, so I don't know 12. Future children's names? No future kids...already got three...that's enough! 14. What is your sign and birthday? Gemini, May 27th 15. Do you eat the stems of broccoli? YUP...yummy 16. If you could have any job what would it be? Psychiatry secondary education/ research 17. If you could have any color hair what would it be? Shit, I think I've done everything I've wanted to... Hubby is curious about me as a blonde though... 18. Is the glass half full or half empty? C'mon, you know me people.... empty. 19. Favorite movie? Ah, shit. I love so many, I always have a hard time with this question. Adam Sandler movies, Labyrinth, Neverending Story, The Mexican, psychological thrillers, romantic comedies 20. Do you type with the right fingers on the keys? yes 21. What's under your bed? Hooked on Phonics (I'm not even joking!) 22. What is your favorite number? 5 23. What is your single biggest fear? Losing a kid 24. Person(s) most likely to respond? Probably no one. 25. Who is least likely to respond? Probably everyone. 26. Favorite CD? All of Jack Johnson's CD's... I refuse to be bullied into picking just one! 27. Favorite TV shows? CSI: Las Vegas, Oprah, Live with Regis and Kelly, That's Clever, American Idol (Shut UP!) 28. Ketchup or mustard? yuk...if I have to choose... ketchup 29. Hamburgers or Hot dogs? never hot dogs... hamburgers only if my daddy made them 30. Favorite soft drink? diet cherry vanilla dr. pepper 31. The best place you have ever been? shit, I haven't been anywhere.... Memphis, TN was pretty fucking cool... probably only because it was the furthest from home I had ever been and I didn't know ANYONE there! 32. The most amazing sight? The first time I saw my children's faces.... Looking at my husband waiting for me at the alter with tears 33. What wall paper is on your computer right now? Carmen Electra 34. FAVORITE BURGER: Like I said, homemade by my daddy 35. Favorite pet? Aw, I love all my pets... ok, well, usually I want to ring my pomeranian, Heaven's, throat so we won't put her... and Lhami, the Himalayian, keeps pissing everywhere... so, I will put Miss Divine, the Boxer pup

This is so NOT me!

Your Personality Profile You are pure, moral, and adaptable.You tend to blend into your surroundings.Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life...And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.As a result, people tend to crave your approval. The World's Shortest Personality Test

Mentally Ill MeMe

What is your diagnosis? Bipolar, ultra-rapid cycles; Borderline Personality Disorder When were you diagnosed? Formally diagnosed Bipolar at age 14; the Borderline was mentioned at this time, but I think I ignored it. Formally diagnosed Borderline at age 25. How long do you believe you have suffered from mental illness? My entire life. I can distinctly remember the ups and downs, the suicidal thoughts and rage throughout my life.(my sister can attest to this!) What medications are you taking for your disorder? At this moment, none. Unless I decide to take Ativan or Klonopin from old prescriptions I have left over. In the past, I have taken: Zoloft, Depakote, Lithium, Lamictal, Zonegran, Risperdal, Prozac, Haldol, and a few others I can’t remember the names of right now. Tell us about an episode. Ah, shit. Pick a day, any day. Read any post listed. I cycle so fast, I have “episodes” daily. An example of a depressed state episode: Locked myself in my closet with all my pills (hundreds), a knife and a beer. My daughter found me, but the door was locked. She cried and begged me to come out. I did. But, I had already taken a few pills, so I went to sleep. My husband was there. He let me sleep, but was pissed off at me. An example of a manic episode: I went to work and didn’t come home for two days. I went to my old favorite bar and stayed until sunlight, found somewhere to crash…but never slept….did it all again when everyone else was done sleeping. When I am manic, I do shit like that a lot. Do you feel ashamed about suffering from a brain disorder? Not so much ashamed as pissed off. I mean, it isn’t like I did it on purpose. Shit! I didn’t even do it on accident! I tell my husband to tell his employers I am ill so that when he doesn’t show up on time and tells them it is because he couldn’t find his wife, they know he isn’t making shit up. I hate my illnesses. I hate what they do to me, I hate what I do to people because of them. But, I am not ashamed of having them…..I am ashamed of a lot of my actions, though. What advice do you have for other sufferers? Hold the fuck on! This ride sucks ass and you are gonna want to get the fuck off….many, many times. For some reason, you have to stay on it, though. One thing I can say, if I wasn’t ill I wouldn’t have sought out the blogs I have and I wouldn’t have some of the very important people in my life that I have now. There is a very real community of us. Sometimes, I love to be part of that “us.” Remember this: “To the world you might be just one person; But to one person, you just might be the world.” (author unknown) EVERYONE has that one person that thinks you are the world, even if you don’t know it. What advice do you have for those who don’t suffer from your condition? If you are married (or in a real relationship) with someone who suffers….Hold the fuck on! Try not to give up on them. There are going to be things that they do that piss you off, hurt you, and confuse you. If you aren’t willing to truly forgive and forget, you should just go. Hanging on to the grudges formed over actions due to this illness won’t help anything. You have to let go. Be there for them….Really BE there. Is there anything you want to say to Tom Cruise? Tom Cruise is an ass. I don’t know what else to say. The meds we take (or should take, at least) save lives. No fucking “God” has ever done that for me or anyone else I know that has tried or succeeded in their suicide attempts. So, Tom, go have your bastard baby (apparently “God” thinks it is ok to have babies out of wedlock, but not to take medication to treat diseases) while your poor fiance pleases you by not taking pain medication or making noise. Idiot.

7 Things

7 Things to Do Before I Die: 1. Travel across country by RV with only my husband and I. 2. Travel outside the US 3. Obtain at least my Master's Degree 4. Watch my kids get married 5. Become a grandmother 6. Have an article published 7. Go on a cruise 7 Things I Can Do: 1. Dance 2. Cook 3. Cry... a lot 4. Paint (?) 5. Write (but, my writing always sucks here for some reason) 6. Kiss boo-boos 7. Apply great make up 7 Things I Can Not Do: 1. Sing 2. Go without talking for longer than a few minutes 3. Enjoy working out 4. Play an instrument (tried violin in 4th grade, it wasn't pretty) 5. Live without animals 6. Stifle my flirtation 7. Tolorate whining 7 Things that Attract Me to the Opposite Sex: 1. Hands (large and strong) 2. Backs (broad and built) 3. Height (6'2" and above, please) 4. Bleach blonde hair 5. Fashion (I love long sleeve button-ups with jeans; I also love the old Orange County look: Dickies and wife beater with hair high and tight) 6. Tattoos (nothing jail-house though) 7. Black eye-liner (hubby is too metrosexual to wear it....damn it) 7 Things I Say Most Often: 1. Fuck, followed by: off, you, it, this shit, him/her/them, life, me...or any variation, including but not limited to: motherfucker, fuckface, fucker 2. (insert child's name) knock it off! 3. Heaven, shut the fuck up (Heaven is my pomeranian) 4. Honey, will you go get me ice cream? 5. I feel like shit. 6. Any other curse word, including but not limited to: god damn it, shit, cocksucker, hell, bastard, bitch (I am a trucker) 7. I love you. 7 Celebrity Crushes: (this was super hard...James and I share most all of his list...I did't want to copy his, but there were two I just couldn't leave off my own list) 1. Carmen Electra ( she is the wallpaper on my pc) 2. Angelina Jolie (who doesn't?) 3. Jennifer Lopez (she made my booty popular!) 4. Vin Deisel 5. Gwen Stefani 6. Fergie 7. Kevin Bacon (this began when I was too young to realize how short he is!) (I just noticed that there are more women than men, hmmm) 7 People Who Need to Do This: (Do I even have seven readers???) 1. Ann 2. Sansanity 3. Gigglezngrinz 4. Joney 5. Robin 6. Michele 7. Sid

50 useless facts about me

1. I LOVE Jack Johnson. 2. I am a human services major. 3. I don't think I want to work in human services. 4. I change my major almost weekly. 5. I hate other people's kids. 6. My own kids drive me batty a good portion of the time. 7. I want my house to look like the design shows. 8. That is impossible with three kids. 9. I am a scrapbooker. 10. I never think my scrapbook looks good enough. 11. I have a 3.82 GPA 12. I never took my SAT's or ACT's in high school. 13. I moved out of my parent's house two weeks before I turned 16. 14. I have never moved back home. 15. I was married the first time when I was 19. 16. It lasted 14 months....about 12 months too long. 17. If this marrage doesn't work, I will NEVER get married again. 18. I could very easily be a lesbian, as long as we had toys. 19. I clean when I am upset. 20. I clean A LOT. 21. I love to bake during the holidays...which means November thru January...and again in February for Valentine's Day. 22. I can be very domestic. 23. I can also be the drunk girl passed out in the bathroom. 24. I don't like either one of those girls very much. 25. I still refer to myself as a "girl" and talk about "adults" like I am not one of them. 26. This is my age. 27. I let my kids get away with too much. 28. I laugh when my kids cuss. (and then tell them they can't do that and mommy shouldn't laugh) 29. I still think it is weird that I am a mom. 30. I have always wanted to be a mom. 31. I don't think I am a very good mom. 32. I examine every person I encounter based on clothing, weight, and apperance. 33. I don't think I am shallow, but you probably do. 34. I think most people look better than I do. 35. I think that people who look better, deserve better. 36. I think that most people act like this too, but they don't admit it. 37. I am so bored I am writing another damn list. 38. I am a procrasinator. 39. My eyes are green, most people think they are brown. 40. I haven't seen my natural hair color in 13 years. 41. I wear glasses, but lost them when I was drunk with the lesbians. 42. I take pictures of myself to try to see what I really look like. 43. I never look good enough. 44. I am full of self-pity. 45. I do not have a single real-life friend in the town where I live. 46. Almost all of the friends I have had were meth addicts. 47. I think this is because they are the only one's who didn't notice my manias. 48. I want to be alone most of the time. 49. I complain about being lonely constantly. 50. I have always been called a whiner.